Job Hunt

It seems that since we've been married, we've always struggled with money. Right now is no exception! It's probably as bad as it's ever been because right now, my hubby, has no work. He hasn't really worked for almost 3 weeks now. and before that it was 1 or 2 weeks of work then 1 or 2 weeks off. He has had the odd job but nothing substantial. I only work part time and my salary is not nearly enough to cover our costs. *sigh*
My husband has been working for himself for the last 3 years and he says he is done (Hallelujah!!!!) There were some positives of him working for himself but in my eyes way more negatives, including me having to be the heavy all the time and kick my not-so-motivated husbands butt out the door. I am glad that this is coming to an end. He said he has come to realize that he just doesn't have what it takes to run his own business. This takes A LOT of stress off of me. An answer to prayer!!!

Winter is always slow, things should start picking up but just when he gets a few calls he injures his arm. ARG!!! It's always something right, lol. So now even if he had work he couldn't do a lot anyway. He said today that his arm is starting to feel better. Maybe he won't have to do physio as we first thought. That too would be an answer to prayer as we just can't afford it.

Well the more that we struggle the more I see and realize that God is trying to teach us something thru our financial situation. I believe we have placed too high a value on stuff. Even if at times, I would wonder why it seems we were so far behind everyone else. I believe God wants our everything and if we have to loose everything in order to get there..., so be it!!! I feel very peaceful (I think for the first time ever) as to where we are at financially. It's really odd because there is a very good chance that we will loose our home. I don't think I have ever been more sure that God is in control and that this is a journey that He is taking us on.
We are so blessed to have a wonderful family with extra space, lol. My parents have offered to let us move in with them if we need to. What I have been thinking about is trying to rent our place out while living with my parents to pay off some debt and try to get a down payment together. During that time Trevor will hopefully find a good and reliable job. The first step however is to visit a financial advisor and see what they can suggest for us.
I realize that I should probably not be posting about such private issues. But alas where else do I go? The only realistic money conversation I can have with my husband is me talking and him saying "mm hmm, right" I feel bad! I know it's a huge stress for him and I don't want to burden him more then he already is. So I come here. Again to let loose on the waves of the world wide web, lol.

Well, my prayer for today is that my wonderful husband finds a good job that he can really enjoy. Something that will draw him into the real meaning of life and where he will have the opportunity to have many great conversations. It doesn't have to be a super high paying job, I just ask for something that will fulfil my husband as a man and help him get out of his depression. A steady paycheck would be really nice too :).
I pray for wisdom on where to go from here, and that the financial advisor will have some great suggestions for us.
But more than anything else I pray that God will continue to move us on this journey. I pray that I will continue to feel His grace and peace thru this whole thing. That somehow He will use this to strengthen my relationship to Him and to my husband and to my family. AMEN


I keep thinking of this quote from Beth Moore in her bible study series on Esther. "If this... then God." So many people ask if this happens then what? My answer, if we loose our home then God will provide another place for us to go.

Thank you Lord for providing and loving us SO much. Even if Trevor can't see it right now, I know you are working in our lives.
What an AWESOME GOD I serve!!!