Around in circles

Around in circles is how I feel things are going. Although things between my husband and I have not been as intense (which I am very greatful for the break) I don't really feel like they are improving much either.
How do you live everyday life knowing that ultimately it's not about you, but still feeling content in a life that's been thrown at you. I don't know if that makes any sense. Let me see if I can explain a bit. I know that ultimately my life is meant to glorify God and that really I ahve a very small part in His story. However I feel so often that I have been thrown into a life I never wanted. I find it so hard to live out the two. How do I glorify God and make his name known when I find just getting thru everyday so hard. It's tiring I feel like I am stuck in this spot. I know in Christ I find true joy, so why is that so hard to live out every day? Why is it so hard to accept the person my husband has become? How do I let God work in him when I constantly get in the way?
ARG!!!! Anyway there are a few random thoughts out of the blue.
My prayer for now is to dig into Christ. To let Christ fill me with His joy and let me live out my everyday and glorify and praise His name. I pray that I stop getting in the way between Him and Trevor. Lord, let me let you, work. AMEN