up-date

Well it's been busy around here! Boxes are being packed, Trevor has started his new full time job, end of the year is coming fast for preschool with many many things to get into place, potential renters coming thru to look at our place (very weird), money stresses to deal with, and the list goes on. We are tired, and very stressed. There has been a lot of tension around here lately. Poor Jaden has been effected by it too, he's been acting out and just generally crabby and with Trevor and I on edge it does not make a good combo. I know we'll get thru it and hopefully come out better off on the other side.
Our deck is getting done, however many naps have been interrupted because of the banging. I will be glad when it's done or we've moved which ever comes first. I am praying that we get some renters soon so that money can start coming in. We need to start paying some of these over-due bills.
Anyway my little monster is up so I better end this soon before he wakes up Magnus.
I am thankful for a wonderful God who sees us thru these though times, Lord help me to dig into you more and to rest in your safe hands. Amen

Answered prayer

So things were getting REALLY bad! And when I say that, I really mean it! Trevor had no week for a month and a half, we were facing for closure on our house, we had minus dollars in the bank, one thing of frozen meat left in the freezer, no gas left in the car and I had about $25 cash in my wallet to get us thru a week and a half. I don't know if I have ever prayed so hard or so sincerely in my life.
The song by Amy Grant, Better than a Hallelujah came to mind.
Friday Trevor gets a job!!!! Sunday, Mother's day. Trevor comes in with Jaden and a little gift. A photo frame with a pic of Jaden and I in Mexico and the words BEST MOM EVER written on it. Tears filled my eyes as I remembered that it's not about all the stuff, God is taking care of us. We have each other and we love our family. We are going to rent out our place and hopefully be able to put some money away. My parents are graciously letting us stay with them, free of charge, so we can get back our feet again. My parents are applying for a loan to cover the cost of our deck repairs so we won't have to for close. And if that falls thru Trevor's parents have offered (although I'd rather not go that route). Trevor has agreed to do some reno work for my parents as a way to pay them back.
Sorry got side tracked so Sunday, I get this little gift, then Trevor makes breakfast. We have a wonderful morning just playing with Jaden till it's time for church where we ALL go. The sermon was ok but the real surprise came when I looked in our church mail box. Inside is a cheque for $320! That will get us by till pay day! It's amazing how God provides for his children.
I will admit I was feeling a little forgotten. Or perhaps being punished for what Trevor is doing, I don't know really know, but this last weekend has been a wonderful reminder that I am a child of God. I went out with some friends from church on Friday night and one of them said to me " I feel like you are a warrior who has lost her purpose" that is exactly how I was feeling. I got teary eyed when she said it. I need to get back in the battle.
Monday was Trevor's first day on the job. It didn't go so well. He was just feeling miserable about it and really not wanting to go back today. I prayed this morning that he would have a better day and find a reason to stay and stick it out. At lunch time today, I get a text from him saying he has be best boss ever!!!! I don't know why yet but I am excited to find out what amazing things God has done today!!
WOW God is good. Thank you all for your prayers. I know we are no where near out of the house situation and getting back on our feet financially but the road ahead seems to be much clearer now then last week
So my prayer for today
I pray that the loan goes thru for my parents! I pray that we find good renters who will take care of our house in case we have to move back in. And I pray that Trevor will see Jesus everyday at his job.

Prayer Request

I know in Christ, you are free. However right now, I do not feel that way! I feel like I am trapped in a tangled web of sorrow, disappointments and anger. I know it's effecting the person I am. The mother I am, the wife I am. The teacher I am, the friend I am. I need Jesus to be my stregth and to carry me thru this.
The top reasons I married my husband no longer exist in him. I am fearful of the effect this will have on my son and any future children. I love the man God created in my husband but I hate the man is he becoming right now. I fear I will never have the marriage and family life I dreamed of. A life serving Christ and sharing our lives together helping others know the healing truth of Jesus Christ. I cannot express the deepness of sorrow with-in my soul and the longing I have to see my husband renewed. Even on good days, it seems as my soul is in unrest. Friends I am tired! Please pray for the strength to continue this fight. Please pray that my path be clear. Trevor has said that he does not want to continue going to the church we have been attending (he thinks the pastor yells), although he said he would if it were elsewhere (however, I don't know if a few weeks down the road it would be another excuse). I need counsel and prayer to help me thru this time. I need to know if I should stay where I am, or look for another church. I need to get connected in (would love to start singing again, miss it so much, as God speaks to me so much thru it)
There is a lot of other stress right now as well. Trevor has been out of work for the last while and I am only working part time. If Trevor doesn't get work soon, we could loose our home. We do have a few options that we are going to be pursuing so we need wisdom as to which is the best options for us.
We have to get our taxes this week. I have to get all Trevor Business stuff together which is never fun as he is VERY un-organized. Then we someone have to come up with the money to pay off his work expenses.
Plus mother's day stuff at school, presents to make, details to come together and a Mother's Day tea to execute. Please be in prayer for my family and me.
If you feel God share anything with you, please feel free to pass it on. I could really use some encouragement and some wisdom.
Pray for hope, strength, courage, and wisdom.
Blessings on you my friends.
Lots of love