I need prayer

Oh my marriage is not at all how I thought it would be! I don't know what else I can do to try and repair the years of hurt and resentment that has built up. I feel so emotionally detached from my husband and it's starting to show. I have tried talking to Trevor but he doesn't understand the severity of where I am at. We've been to councelling, we've had countless discussions. I feel like I've tried so much and been rejected. Now however it seems like Trevor is finally putting in some effort and I am the one that's done. I am super agitated whenever he is around. Everything he does is annoying to me. When he touches me I almost cringe. I don't want to feel this way but I do and I don't know what to do about it! I know we need Jesus in our marriage! Trevor has shut him out and I feel like my time with God us so limited right now with a toddler and a newborn and a house to run. I have started a bible study but there is no child care so my attention is divided plus I am very disconnected at my church. I am gonna start going to my parents church for the support and accountability during this time. I need prayer!!! I'm feeling at a loss.